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a lesson

Friday, October 16, 2009, 3:10 PM

through all those hard time
and yesterday tired night.
i started to think carefully
on some part of me
this morning suddenlyy like my mine
kena brain-washed.
i felt so damn tired dizzy headache.
and that time then i realized that
am i going to dead?
my head is so pain at that moment.

what am i going to say is that
i realized i had go on so much sadness is because i
used to think so much on a small matter.
so im going to change myself.
i started to try not to hate someone.
and started to treat someone i hate nicely.
this is all because of the lesson of tiredness.
i feel like my life is full of hard time is because thinking too much.
i used to jealous if someone had more admire than me.
( no fixed person)
its just an example.
when i flashback i feel liek im so stupid.
i had my own life why i need to care others?
i do ask myself
why?
why?
why?
maybe because i love to ask myself why
and it influence my emotion.
i am a easily frustrated person
and had a bad temper.
(all this temper can be only seen in my own house)
i will not do my temper in school
because i tried not to.
im sorry if people seen mt temper its mean im exploding.
at home, i can frust easily ,even towards my family.

and, fyi
this week is my last outings
next week onwards will not going out
just to force myself to studyy.
feel tired of life nowadays.